He set a fire

Good morning gurls, it's Tuesday.

Actually, it's not. It's Monday evening, but I just finished reading Laura's amazing post and I got so inspired and excited to post that I just had to start now.
Which I actually do a lot. Huh.

ANYWAY, today there will be a lack of goofy GIF's and pictures, random rambling and fangirling from me- because I have BUSINESS TO ATTEND TO.

Yes I do.

The Hartford Project 2014

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH
AH
AH
AHHH
AHHH
That's always my first reaction to those words.
GAHHH!!

I am so, so, so beyond grateful for my experience last week..it was honestly one of the best weeks of my life and I will always remember it- I am also so freaking excited for next year!

And, I mean, I'll be honest- I wasn't exactly pleased with me team from the beginning, but I tried going in with a positive attitude, and it actually turned out to be awesome- sure, there was some conflict, and I sometimes felt excluded from the people I wanted to be around, but I pushed past my stupid little worries and tried focusing on the bigger picture-
Serving the city of Hartford that so badly needed the love of Christ and the people of Christ, and just making the most of the week.
And I think I did that fairly well.

I just... I can't understand how I was living so far away from Christ for so long. I mean, yes, the pleasures of the world are nice- for a time. But there is always this nagging guilt that I shouldn't just be living in what I'm living in- being unproductive, not doing anything with your day, wasting words on nasty things....

With Christ, you get a whole new perspective on everything. I try and be kinder with my words. I try and spend my time more wisely on the internet. I have a heart for mission now and I want to volunteer at every place I can- I mean, weeding has suddenly become easy!!

I have friends who are starting to struggle with the things I just let go during THP and my heart aches when they come to me, seeking help- I'm just like

 

Can't you see how much God loves you?!?! Don't do that, ah- ah- No, don't!! God loves you, he wants you to be with him and he wants to keep you safe! And it frustrates me that they don't see, but I also know that God is working in their life, and that he will help them through the struggles, just like he helped me.

And at the same time, during THP, I saw some of my closest friends let go of what was holding them back from the unfathomable love of Christ and it makes me so, sooo, so, so happy because knowing that they'd been struggling with all that stuff for so long and had been on nearly the last straw, and then to seem them just let it go (LET IT GO, CAN'T HOLD IT BACK ANYMOOREE)... it just made me so freaking happy. To see that God had worked in their life like that..... ♥ happiness everywhere ♥

I have to pee


 I guess God has just set a fire in my soul, that I can't contain, that I can't control, and I want more of him- God.
That wasn't supposed to sound cheesy- it's supposed to sound real, because it is real.

AUUUUUUGHHH SO MANY GOOD, GODLY EMOTIONS I CAN'T.

Guys, guys  gurls, gurls- I am literally FANGIRLING over Jesus Christ. THIS IS SO WEIRD BUT FANTASTIC AT THE SAME TIME.

I don't know how to feeeeeellll except HAPPY.

HAH. I just got Happy by Pharrell stuck in your head.

okay so now listen to this song so you won't have Happy stuck in your head.

This song is beautiful and wonderful and y'all should listen to it forever <3

SO CUTE

Okay I have to go. I love you all.

LOVE WINS.

xoxo
Mercy